Prodigal son series n°3

Read the Introduction to the series.

Or read the first episode "I don't want to talk about that"

Or the second episode, Tempted to go back to all that

I messed up

I feel so awful. I said I wouldn't. I resisted the temptation that assaulted me for weeks on end. And then one night I didn't ask my father to help me resist, because I was too embarrassed to be tempted again, and I went out to take a walk, saying I'd be OK. I met old "friends". And I gave in.
Enough said.
How can I ever go back after this? Since I've been home the worst I've done is a couple spats with my brother and my father disciplined both of us.
I am afraid he won't take me back, not a second time.
I know he will but I have a hard time believing it. And what if my brother finds out? I don't think HE could forgive me- ever. Not for hurting my father again.

I need to listen to Kansas, "Hold on". Sadly, Kansas isn't born yet and there aren't any electric guitars. I tell you, life in first century Israel is just no fun. Enough said.
Here are the future lyrics anyway:

Look in the mirror and tell me
Just what you see
What have the years of your life
Taught you to be
Innocence dyin' in so many ways
Things that you dream of are lost
Lost in the haze

(Chorus)
Hold on, Baby Hold on
'Cause it's closer than you think
And you're standing on the brink
Hold on, Baby Hold on
'Cause there's something on the way
Your tomorrow's not the same as today

Don't you recall what you felt
When you weren't alone
Someone who stood by your side
A face you have known
Where do you run when it's too much to bear
Who do you turn to in need
When nobody's there

(Chorus)

Outside your door He is waiting
Waiting for you
Sooner or later you know
He's got to get through
No hesitation and no holding back
Let it all go and you'll know
You're on the right track

(Chorus)


This song bears hope for me.

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